Academic Leadership by Day, Student by Night: Juggling Department Management, Teaching, and a PhD Program as a Minority Woman
by Barbara c.g. Green | Xchanges 19.2, Fall 2025
Contents
Situating and Leveling Up Identity Convergence
Shapeshifting Through Academia and Pedagogical Evolution
The Psychological Negotiations Between Authority Figure and Student
How Professional Expertise Shapes and Influences Graduate Studies
The Heavy Hand of Impostor Syndrome
Recommendations and Applications
Conclusions and Future Directions
The journey through identity convergence in academia reveals unexpected knowledge. While the constant shapeshifting between leadership, faculty, and student roles can initially feel disorienting, I've discovered that the benefits far outweigh the challenges. Beyond the obvious advantage of acquiring new knowledge through graduate studies, the embodiment of these three roles creates a unique triangular learning experience where each role enriches the others.
Even impostor syndrome, often viewed solely as a manifestation of self-doubt, can be reframed as a catalyst for growth when viewed through a learning lens. My experience has shown that this persistent companion can actually drive innovation across all academic roles, pushing us to question assumptions and seek new approaches. When leaders or faculty members return to student status, they gain knowledge and transformative possibilities that can revitalize their departments and institutions.
The ripple effects of these multiple identities extend far beyond individual growth. When institutions create spaces for leader-faculty-students to apply their emerging scholarship locally, they foster environments of continuous learning and innovation. I've witnessed how this approach enhances institutional reputation, boosts student success and retention, and helps professionals like myself navigate the psychological complexities of role-shifting while battling impostor syndrome.
Looking ahead, the key to maximizing these benefits lies in recognizing and supporting the unique value of multiple academic identities. Rather than seeing these roles as separate or conflicting, we must embrace their interconnected nature. This perspective opens new possibilities for institutional growth, professional development, and academic innovation. The future of academia may well depend on our ability to create spaces where such identity convergence can flourish, transforming both individuals and institutions in the process.
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